Starting Over

Well, I found out I'm pregnant again. :-)

My technical due date is February 20th, 2006 and the morning sickness has just begun. This is something I have to get used to again, since i havent really had morning sickness for over 5 years.

This time I decided to 'break' the news all at once to everyone and get it over with. My mother acted as if she already knew- but I'm sure she's a little shook up.

Frankly- I really dont care about other's opinions on the topic. Jay is very happy, as am I, and really- we would like one more after this and be done. We feel like 6 is a very realistic number for our family. Just because some people cant cope with the idea of having 6 kids doesn't mean it's not realistic for others.

:-) So at this point, I cant wait to start showing. Abbie is very very into it and she tells me every day how happy she is there is a baby in my tummy which is darling.

I had this dream...

...and i was walking through the mob's underground hideaway where they relax and hang out, I was going to be their personal secretary. The whole place was right out of the 60's... no DVD players or Cds- all 8 tracks and turn tables. I fell in love with the furniture and I had tears in my eyes as I told them I would love to use their stuff in my photoshoots.

They all called me their own, and said I could clean as much as I wanted there.
Awww, how nice.... *pours another cup of coffee*... I joined the mob.

Run Away!

Today I was seriousely thinking about some tough decisions I have had to make, and some situations I've come in contact with.

I've been listening to some friends who have gotten themselves into a bigger mess than I could possibly conceive a happy solution for- and I wonder how close I am to mistakes like that? It's very simple to fall down that rabbit hole.

Well, I have given people advice in the past what to do when they are faced with something that feels wrong, but they are curiouse about.
"Run away." I say. "Run away."

After a hot and active weekend day today, Jacob (my 21 mo old) came up to me asking for a drink. His head was sweaty, and I knew what he wanted was pop from the fridge. Instead, i offered some of my ice cold decaf chai tea that I had just taken a drink of.

At first, Jacob saw me drink from it, and he eagerly waited for me to share the drink. The minute he got his face into the mug and looked at it, he turned around, and ran away as fast as he could, which is very typical for him to do when he doesnt want something.

Watching his sillouette get smaller and smaller and dissapear downstairs, it occured to me that this was the perfect solution!

If something doesnt seem right, your not sure what it is- even if it looks like it might have been okay for someone else, run away. Keep yourself from trouble.

My chai tea was not trouble- it was just something Jacob knew he didnt care for, and didnt want to come in contact with. He ran as far as possible to avoid an uncomfortable situation. What a great idea!

-Jyn