Writing this in FLock...

Pretty cool!!! I am writing this from my browser, Flock. You should check it out. Ill post the link in a bit.
-Jyn

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Bah- what a day

It's just been an emotional and trying day today. Did I ever tell you how much I love Halloween? I do, I love it a lot not because of any of the scary stuff- but for the fun of dressing up! My kitty litter cake was a hit at my hubby's work (again!) so I have that. I'm glad they loved it- and if you work with him, thank you guys for loving it!

Otherwise, did you know that Safari isn't letting me log into blogger? Nope, keeps redirecting me.

I <3 Firefox.

My talk with MobileMe Support

So, as a Macintosh user, I have recently had to face the facts that certain things have to change... whether I like it or not.

I chat on iChat with my old .mac nickname that wasn't active as a working account. Now that .mac has been phased out and transformed into .me , I am finding it impossible to administrate my options for my old nickname that I use regularly to chat with because the fact it wasn't active when it was migrated meant they deleted the account overall. All I want to do is change my password, but alas- it's.... impossible! Yep, that is what I said- you cannot change your old .mac password. It doesn't exist any longer other than in the AIM chat world. It's un-administratable.

If you know of an answer, by all means let me know. Here is my chat with the tech support of apple.com .

P.S.- Don't let them tell you that you can change it via the iforgot.apple.com web URL, because it doesn't work either. It will say you changed it, but changes will not take.

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* You are chatting with Joe T, a MobileMe Support Representative

Hi, my name is Joe T. Welcome to Apple!
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Jyn Meyer: Hi Joe, happy halloween :)
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Joe T: And Happy Halloween to you as well, Jyn! How are you doing?
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Jyn Meyer: I just talked with a representative about my issue
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Jyn Meyer: and it wasnt resolved

Jyn Meyer: I need to change my password connected with my .mac nick that I use for ichat, and she sent me to iforgot.apple.com
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Joe T: I do apologize for any inconvenience this has caused you, Jyn. I see that you were trying to get your password reset on your MobileMe account, is that correct?
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Jyn Meyer: I have successfully changed it that way, but it isn't applying
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Jyn Meyer: no , not on my mobileme
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Jyn Meyer: on my .mac
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Jyn Meyer: I have two nicknames. I have xxxxxx@mac.com that I use for chatting, and then I have xxxxxx@me.com for my .me- I need to change the password associated with my .mac account NOT my .me.
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Joe T: Ok, .Mac was actually transitioned into MobileMe back in July. As your account was active during that period, you were allowed to keep the @mac.com email address, although you now also have an @me.com address as well. Both will empty into the same mailbox, though, as they are the same account.
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Jyn Meyer: Ok, so how come they have separate passwords then? are you saying I cannot change my .mac password ever now?
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Jyn Meyer: because they are still being allowed for use in chat...
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Joe T: If you used the @mac.com email address for your iChat login, the iChat login is actually completely separate from .Mac or MobileMe. You can use the email address for that login, but beyond that the password created in iChat is separate from your account password.
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Jyn Meyer: I dont use mail, or anything for my .mac other than my ichat.... and I need to change my ichat password for the nickI use regularly (xxxxxx@mac.com)
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Jyn Meyer: so...how do I change it then?
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Joe T: I'll be right with you.
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Jyn Meyer: thank you :)
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Jyn Meyer: I appreciate your help
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Joe T: Ok, I show the account xxxxxx@mac.com is no longer an active MobileMe account. Just to let you know, those @mac.com email addresses that were used for iChat logins were allowed to retain the ability to use them or iChat, but all other functions of the .Mac account were ended when the account became inactive for an extended period. Let me see if there is a way to be able to change the password for your iChat login, though.
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Jyn Meyer: that would be great
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Jyn Meyer: Eitherwya I just need to know- ok we can change it or, sorry you are out of luck... you would think though, that they woudl want to keep you secure fi they were going to let us sontinue using that old email addy
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Jyn Meyer: im a bit dislexic today, sorry, heh
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Joe T: Quite alright. Let me check a bit more on this for you, Jyn.
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Jyn Meyer: Thank you :) I'm patient
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Joe T: I'm sorry for the delay. I'll be right with you.
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Jyn Meyer: its ok
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Jyn Meyer: I have five kids- Im always busy :D
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Joe T: Thank you for waiting. I'll be with you in just a moment.
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Joe T: I'll be right with you.
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Joe T: I'm sorry for the delay. I'll be right with you.
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Joe T: Thank you for waiting, Jyn. Ok, from what I have been able to find, it does not appear that there is currently any way to change the password for your iChat login xxxx@mac.com. Basically, what occurred is that your .Mac account with that address became inactive sometime before the transition to MobileMe and was deprovisioned. When the transition occurred, any .Mac accounts that were in a deprovisioned status became recycled and available again for creation as a MobileMe account, although without the @mac.com (all new accounts created after the transition have only @me.com). The @mac.com addresses were allowed to continue being used as iChat accounts, though.
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Joe T: Unfortunately, the iChat login version of your address used the same password as the @mac.com account. As the account no longer exists, though, we have no way to be able to change that password.
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Jyn Meyer: I have a buddy who is tech for macintosh and he says he is able to administrate his via his .me account
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Jyn Meyer: he has both, but has a fmaily pack
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Jyn Meyer: family even
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Joe T: Correct, if his account remained active, he would still be able to change the password through MobileMe. Your jxxxxxx@mac.com currently only exists as a iChat login, though, and is no longer a MobileMe account because it was inactive and became recycled during the transition. As the account no longer exists with MobileMe, there is no way to edit or change the password.
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Jyn Meyer: ok
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Jyn Meyer: this is bad though, you know that lol
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Jyn Meyer: because now there is a completely unadministratable nickname in the world
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Jyn Meyer: Im sure im not the only one
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Joe T: Newly created MobileMe accounts, such as the xxxxxx@me.com, can also be used as iChat logins as long as the MobileMe account remains active. However, unlike the @mac.com addresses, when the account becomes inactive the @me.com address can no longer be used to login to iChat until the account is reactivated.
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Jyn Meyer: right
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Jyn Meyer: So in order to create an ichat nickname that I can administrate - what do I need to do?
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Joe T: Currently you can use your trial MobileMe account, xxxxx@me.com, to login to iChat. Again, though, this will only be usable while the account remains active. You can change the password on this account to one of your choosing at any time by going to www.me.com/account. You will need to enter the current password, after which you can change it through Password Settings on the left.
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Jyn Meyer: Right, but say i dont want to continue the trial- what would I need to do to have an administratable ichat nickname?
* Joe T: Let me check and see if there may be a way to use it outside of utilizing MobileMe. One moment, please.
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Jyn Meyer: thank you

Joe T: I'll be right with you.
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Joe T: Thank you for waiting. I'll be with you in just a moment.
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Joe T: I'm sorry for the delay. I'll be right with you.
Joe T: Ok, essentially, when you use your .Mac or MobileMe email address for iChat, it actually creates an AIM (AOL Instant Messenger) username as well which becomes linked with your .Mac or MobileMe account. When you are accessing iChat, it is actually doing so with the linked AIM account, though this is all handled by iChat. While your .Mac account no longer exists, if you are still able to use xxxxx@mac.com in iChat it may be possible that the AIM account it was linked to is still active. If you can gain access to that AIM account, you may be able to change the password from that end. Unfortunately, AIM is something that is outside of our ability to provide support or direction with.
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Jyn Meyer: right- and they wash their hands of macintosh as well...
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Jyn Meyer: since they just allow, basicly, apple users to use their software with their nicks
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Jyn Meyer: sort of like yahoo does with sbcglobal, etc
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Jyn Meyer: and they dont adm inistrate those names that are not affiliated with their company- just like I cant change my account info with a shared branch banking company- I would need to go to my actual bank to do that.
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Jyn Meyer: so, my nickname is in limbo
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Jyn Meyer: lol

Yay! I cleaned my kitchen today. After dropping my husband off at work, the sunshine felt so good- I turned on a good African music CD and washed my floor by hand. I also wiped down my table which had milk splotches all over it from kid use. It's such a beautiful day today!
So spirits are up, the weather is nice and windy with sunshine- great time to clean the house out! My younger three and I are going to go pumpkin hunting in a few hours, so life is good.
-Jyn

Montauk Monster-What I Think it IS

Ok, so- I watched the video footage (still trying to figure out which website I watched it at) and saw the pictures and people picking up the said decomposed carcass that was left.

What is it?

Well, today after visiting my local zoo with my kids, I saw a great skull of an otter at the otter exhibit. The Montauk Monster LOOKS a LOT like ... a decomposing otter.
Without the hair and with perhaps part of the snout missing, I really think that could be an otter.

Below is why I think it is an otter:



Here is an illustration of an otter skull. You can see a partly decomposed nose tip can easily look like a beak from the direction of the image.





So there you have it. I think they need to just bag those bones and remains, and identify the DNA of the thing to stop all the stupid speculation.

-Jyn

Just when you thought you knew it all..

Just when you thought you knew it all, something changes and nothing looks the same again.

I've been going through a tremendous amount of turmoil lately over certain decisions I made a long time ago I thought was the right thing.

Can I say one thing? If nothing else I have ever said is ever taken to heart, know this... if you enter into a long term relationship expecting that ANYTHING will ever change, you are wrong.

Yes, relationships change people. Couples grow and meld in both the good and the bad. Situations can make and break people. But even though it's possible that the akwardness of getting to know someone may eventually fade... you need to know that there is the probability that the person you are with will NOT change their founding character just because you made a choice to be with them.

Period.

Just giving in and choosing to do your best to be the best for them MAY make them love you, doing whatever it takes changing whatever it takes.....YES!But you have to accept that you will ALWAYS have to be that way.

Keep 'em how you 'catch them.

I changed a huge part of who I was to make my husband respect me and love me. I sacrificed a bit part of my personality, even goals and dreams to support his thinking that he would naturally want to bless me that way also.

What ended up happening, was I fell through the cracks. If you put yourself aside enough times, people forget you have needs that are vital. Your needs become expendable, but they never were so important enough before that they took presedence.

Yes, my husband fell in love with me. He fell in love with my accomodations, with my understanding through pain and suffering, through hardship after hardship- he fell in love with how comfortable I made him, how safe and indestructable I allowed him to be.
He fell in love with my low maintenence and my optimism.

That is because I had to do those things to catch him. I had to set aside things that filled my cup. I had to resolve to having things a certain way and I built up a wall towards a lot of dreams. I was EXTREMELY scared to make any plans for my life... to dream about what I would love... because none of it lined up with his, and ultimately everything was formed into what he wanted or needed.

I realized how unhappy I was years ago. I felt like I was a child at home dreaming of one day when I could grow up and have a life... but I am already grown!
I saw other couples socializing and doing things I wanted to do. Vacations, School functions, daily family routines... things that both people took control in doing, it wasnt one person making it all happen.

Sometimes I wonder where my family life ends and mine begins... I'm happy to sacrifice myself for my kids. But I do not feel that staying in a marriage where I am unhappy and unfulfilled will be the best for my kids. I believe that my kids deserve to see their mom at her best, in love and life, and the same for their father.

I can't, "Oh well." my way through life in my marriage.
Stepping outside of myself, I see this... whole world! There is a world out there!!

People do things, go places, interact with other people outside their families! They have people over, they have goals and work towards those goals. They may not be perfect , but who is?

I've had a motto for a long time, it is:
"The grass is always green on the side you water it."

My husband's lawn has been watered daily since he met me. But my lawn is very very dry and dead.

It's time to go.
-Jyn

How to Hack your Coffee

So ... oh and yes, I said 'hack'... it really feels that way today.

I need coffee.
This has been one of those mornings where you wake up, sit up on the edge of your bed, pick up your bottom eyelids and lips from the carpet and as you throw them over your shoulder think about how you are OUT of coffee.

Some Java Words of wisdom

It may not be a good idea to set your coffee creamer next to your bottle of Olive oil while preparing your cup of coffee.

I wont go into the exact details but at this point, I wouldn't think I would have to.
*blink blink*



(more words of wisdom)

However... if you DO happen to set your coffee creamer next to your bottle of olive oil, a good way to remove olive oil from a cup-o-joe is via cold temperature, i.e; the freezer.

*ahem*

That will be all.
-Jyn

Video-MAMA!

I've been vlogging like a madwoman. There is SO MUCH I was to put on there, so much more about me that I just cant talk about publicly. It's hard... because I know there are others who know what I'm going through.



I'm working on a music video for one of my favorite songs. I just need to gathermore footage.

I just pray that I stay on track... and keep looking forward to my future, and hang in there to complete all these things I've started.
-Jyn

It's about that time again...

So... here it comes... It's May now.
I have to scroll back in time and see how much I actually posted earlier, but- May 22nd is a BAD DAY for Jyn. (and it makes her talk in third person)

Not only is it the day of her first miscarriage back in 2001... but it is also the day of her SECOND miscarriage... in 2007!!!!

Yes... I started miscarrying last year on the exact day of my first miscarriage. I think it made it worse for me.

SO.... yeah. *sigh*
I've been perusing YouTube's Baby belly movement videos over the past few days. I'm just one for a beating I guess. I really really miss being pregnant.

-Jyn

Hey- I'm tough stuff!

I love my Mac. I hardly reach for a mirror anymore, and if what I need to see is out of mirror-range, I just grab my Mac! Life is better when you have a way to make silly faces at yourself. As for me, right now I am debating what it is my house needs to be a healthier environment for Jyn's moral. I'm pretty ready to start my spring purge and start planning on replacing things I have just been getting by with. I would also love, love, love to have a place for EVERYTHING.

"What's that? Tweezers? Why yes...yes I have tweezers... they're right here."

At the moment I have about 20 misc bins which are huge rubbermaid bins with misc items in them. DVD's, papers, books, toys, maybe an earing or two, a shower curtain ring, who knows? So in the meantime I am going to sit here make faces at myself and try to think up my dream organizational unit...

Be still my beating heart...

I need to get my heart checked out.

I was diagnosed with PVC's when I was a young adult, but they seem much more prevelant and disruptive. It really is quite frustrating feeling your heart pause and build with adrenaline rushes following.

I'll post what I find when I do go in.
-Jyn

I guess it's been a while..

I have been too busy being.. too busy to write.
Bad, BAD Jyn.

I think really, what did it, was the fact that I have lost some really great blogs from the past on here. I'm not sure how it happened, but it was most probably my fault in moving the blog to a new layout.

Either way, I figure I should start again.